been a while..

..and what do i have to say for myself.

nothing.

as i talked to him today i felt normal. i can't say that i felt drawn towards him. but, i just can't stop thinking about him.

i just can't stop ever. and it's almost becoming annoying because i dont think he will ever feel the same again. as much as i would like him to, i just dont see it happening.

and i HATE that he mentioned her name to me. it just irks me. that girl took my love away from me. and i can never forgive her for it. and right now i can't forgive him for still keeping in contact with her.

see, this is exactly the kind of unhealthy mess i'm in.

oh sadface.

i just want to get a second chance with him. that's all. is that too much to ask??

..maybe it is..